Update

I haven't posted about anything going on in my life for a couple weeks. I'm not sure why. Do my thoughts for the day count? Perhaps it was because I had two hard tasks to do and I didn't want to do them, and I put them off and couldn't really write until those two tasks were taken care of.

I'm moving forward.

I'm taking care of Betty.

I'm back on Match.com...and OKCupid.

I'm grieving the losses resulting from the two hard tasks, but I'm grieving joyfully. I would have never thought that was possible, but I am grieving joyfully. Both tasks involved letting go of people and in the letting go, I knew I was moving myself forward, but I was also helping them move forward as well. And in neither case did I entirely let go. In both cases, my love for each of them just grew stronger. What happens next is up to the Universe. We will all be stronger for it.

Speaking of strength, can I talk about the incredible strength it took for me to let go? How deeply I struggled with making the forward movement? How proud I am of myself for finding that strength, for following through, for taking care of Betty?

I know that the Universe has many surprises in store for me. I know that I have adventures ahead. I know that I will be better than fine, that I will grow and benefit from each of these experiences, as will those that I love.

I'm dating again.

I'm not enjoying it as much as I have in the past, perhaps because I am older, more cynical, more picky.

Perhaps it is because I have loved a very fine man, and he will be a hard act to follow. I've decided to give it my best shot, though. I've decided to let the swains wine and dine me, charm and compliment me. I've decided to let these men buzzing on my phone "Bettify" me. I've coined this word to describe how I treat a love interest...how I try so very hard to please the object of my desire, how I cook and dress and buy little gifts designed to please. I'm ready to be the one being pleased.

I think it's my turn.

Of course, how many men are there out there who really know how to do that?

I intend to find out.